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The last months I have been walking in a bit of personal revelation about who I am and what I really want to do. Life goes through ups and downs; we walk through light and darkness. Sometimes you have the opportunity to look around when passing over a hill (figuratively speaking) and you see experiences, motives and decisions in a new light.

When I had my own (small) company I got the habit of writing down business plans and goals every once in a while. Pretty soon I discovered that I could reason with myself through the process of writing and formulating my plans. The writing process did drag things out from me.

I started to do that for my personal life also and for my main interests. I tried to formulate my thoughts every month or when I felt like it. I jotted down something first and rewrote it a couple of times until I was satisfied. It may sound boring, but it was actually very exciting. My headings were something like “What has happened with that I thought and decided last time”, “What I am thinking now” and “Decisions now”. I started to monitor my reactions and evaluate the results of my decisions. Honesty is very important. I noticed that I began to understand myself and my likings better through this process. Reflection became more and more natural.

I was in a situation where I was unsure of what I really wanted to do. Instead of choosing the simplest path or what looked most attractive at first sight, I tried to walk a few steps on each of the different paths and observed the reaction of myself and others. I wanted to have feedback. I found out that I didn’t know everything about myself. You may have plans and dreams, but there are deeper levels in your being. You are more than the sum of your thoughts and plans that you know of.

So what are the main ingredients if I express it in a theoretical way; observation, feedback, evaluation and adaptation as a result.